❤️ First Lifetime: The Beginning - The Mother Wound ❤️

I was born 10.5 lbs in Timmins, Ontario - and straight into chaos.

From my very first breath, the air I inhaled was thick with pain, rage, and control. Abuse — sexual, mental, physical — shaped my earliest memories.

My mother, drowning in her own wounds, was my first mirror. Instead of protection, there was yelling, hitting, shaming, and abandonment. The kind of fear that hardwires itself into a child’s nervous system.

This is what they call a 3rd-degree mother wound — when the very person you depend on for safety becomes the one you fear most.

So I adapted.
I learned to perform.
To please.
To obey.
To disappear if needed.

School wasn’t a sanctuary — it was another arena for humiliation. I left elementary school bullied, isolated, and convinced I was stupid.

And still, a part of me knew: this wasn’t all there was.

For years, I brushed it off — “My parents didn’t know better.” “I’m stronger because of it.”
But the truth? I built my entire life on that survival wiring. The pressure. The pleasing. The performance.

High-achieving women often miss this: we normalize pain. We call it discipline. We wear trauma like a trophy. But survival isn’t success. And it isn’t freedom.

Decoder Takeaway:
This lifetime gave me my first map of human survival patterns — how they start, how they disguise themselves, and how they silently run the show decades later. Today, it’s why I can spot these patterns instantly in my clients — even when they can’t see them yet.

❤️ The 2nd Lifetime: The Rebellion - The Split ❤️

In High School Something Cracked Me Open

 
I was done obeying.
Done shrinking.

I began mirroring my mother back to herself — her anger, her projection, her denial.
It terrified her… and in truth, it terrified me too.

This was my first real transformation — my first quantum leap.
I went from being the bullied, isolated girl who thought she was stupid…
…to becoming magnetic, popular, and on the honor roll.

I excelled in psychology, sociology, and philosophy.
I asked questions in class that made my teachers stop mid-sentence.
I wasn’t just smart — I was tuned in.

I even attracted a deeply caring relationship — so real my friends asked,
“How did you do that?”

On the surface, it looked like freedom.
But here’s what I couldn’t see yet:
I was still performing.
Still adapting.
Still building my worth on how others responded to me.

At 17, my mother kicked me out.
I was homeless, moving in with my boyfriend’s family.
And I kept going.
Kept rising.
Kept becoming.

By the time I was legally an adult, I’d already lived two lifetimes.
But I hadn’t broken free from survival — I’d just learned how to excel within it.

Decoder Takeaway:
This was the lifetime where I realized transformation isn’t always liberation. You can “level up” and still be trapped in the same loop, just with better clothes and a bigger smile. It’s why, today, I don’t just help clients achieve — I help them break the whole pattern so the success actually feels free.

❤️ The 3rd Lifetime: The Rise – The Chase for Success ❤️

I Transformed Into A Corporate Warrior. 

After being kicked out at 17, my dream of becoming a psychologist hit a wall.
I was denied a student loan because my parents “made too much” — even though they weren’t supporting me at all.

So I stayed local, enrolled in community college, and told myself I’d find another path.
Everyone around me worshipped “business people” like they were gods.
Fine, I thought… I’ll become one.

Four years later, I moved to Toronto and transformed again — this time into the corporate warrior.

From customer service to Director of Business Development in Fortune 500 companies.
Twenty years.
Thousands of entrepreneurs.
Tens of thousands of financials reviewed across North America.
I climbed fast, high, and hard — becoming one of the most sought-after in my industry.

And yet… I was starving inside.

I obsessed over my body, my relationships, my money.
I battled a binge eating disorder.
I lay awake at night, stressing over investments we’d lost.
I earned more than I ever imagined possible…
…and yet it never felt like enough.

Achievement became my armor.
It was how I proved I was lovable.
Some women in survival chase men.
Some chase beauty.
I chased success — unconsciously still trying to earn the love and acceptance I never got in childhood.

Decoder Takeaway:
This lifetime taught me that no amount of “outer wins” can fill an inner gap. You can have the title, the salary, the recognition — and still feel unsafe, unworthy, and unseen. It’s why, today, I help clients dissolve the root interference so their outer success finally matches how good they feel inside.

❤️ The 4th Lifetime: The Body Breaks – The Mask Cracks ❤️

The body finally said... No.  

Eventually, my body called my bluff.
It had been carrying the weight of my survival patterns for decades — and it started breaking under the pressure.

The binge eating I’d battled for years spiraled out of control.
I gained weight I couldn’t seem to lose, no matter how disciplined I was.
After having my daughters, my body didn’t bounce back — and the more I tried to force it, the worse it got.

Then came the diagnoses:
High blood pressure.
Celiac.
Hypothyroidism.
A compromised immune system that had me violently throwing up every other week.

FCK… I had become my mother.
And it terrified me.

So I did what I knew best: I transformed again.
This time, into a professional fitness athlete.

From over 210 pounds in pregnancy to placing 3rd on a world stage.
I became a nutritionist.
I was featured in magazines.
I was admired, applauded, and held up as an example of discipline and drive.

And yet… when the lights faded, the binge eating came back.
The obsession came back.
The pressure came back.

This transformation wasn’t freedom.
It was just another polished version of performance.

Decoder Takeaway:
This lifetime showed me that even a “win” can be another disguise for the loop. Without removing the root interference, you can change the body, the job, the relationship — and still find yourself right back where you started. It’s why, today, I focus on ending the loop at its source, so the change is real and lasting.

❤️ The 5th Lifetime: The Collapse - The Corporate Breakdown ❤️

I was awarded top 3 as an athlete & in the corporate world.

On paper, I was winning. Top 3 in the world as a professional athlete. Top 3 in sales at a multi-billion-dollar bank, out of more than 400 reps.

And then… they forgot to call my name on stage.

It sounds small.
But in that moment, something inside me snapped. All the years of pushing, proving, and performing hit me at once.

I came home, brushing my daughter Sophia’s hair — One hand on the brush, the other glued to my phone, scanning a flood of corporate emails demanding I stop posting photos of my body online.

Sophia screamed at me to stop pulling. And I lost it.

I dropped to the floor. Fists pounding. A rage and grief so deep, it ripped through every version of me I had ever built. And finally… I started to meet myself.

That’s when Bob Proctor entered my life. I learned the science behind mindset and manifestation. I joined his inner circle. I left the corporate golden handcuffs — $200K/year, gone — and leapt into a new identity.

I became a consultant. A teacher. A leader. A success story… again.

I left my 20-year marriage, knowing we didn’t love each other — it was just convenience.
I started over with almost nothing.

And then I manifested it all:

• The dream man, exactly like I’d written.

• A glass-walled office.

• A million-dollar home on the water.

• A Range Rover.

• A multiple six-figure business.

It looked like “I made it.”
But underneath… survival was still running the show.

Decoder Takeaway:
This lifetime taught me how achievement can look like liberation — while still being powered by the same hidden wiring. I saw firsthand how quickly a “dream life” can crumble when it’s built on interference patterns instead of true alignment. Now, I help clients create lives that can’t be taken away — because they’re rooted in who they really are.

❤️ The 6th Lifetime: The Healing - The Seeking❤️

Deeper Inward Dive. I Was Hiding.

After building my “dream life,” I should have felt free.
Instead, the weight of it all was crushing me.

So I went inward. Deeper than ever before.

Over four years, I spent more than $600,000 on certifications, modalities, and mastery:
Energetics. Quantum physics. Mindset. Manifestation. Ancient wisdom. Business. Money. Global Paradigm Systems. Religions.

I worked with the best in the world. I was determined to find the missing piece that would finally make me feel whole.

But instead of lightness, my life grew heavier.

I was carrying everything:
The man. The house. The family. Their emotions.
Even the dog barked at me constantly, begging for my attention.

My weight crept back. My health declined. Doctors told me I had cancer cells in my cervix. Fewer and fewer people showed up to my events — and I knew why.

Because money follows resonance. Clients follow resonance. And my nervous system was living in resentment, frustration, and lack... even if "I knew  a lot". 

I was exhausted. Exhausted from transforming. Exhausted from chasing the “next version” of myself.

Coaches told me, “Change your identity.” But I was done forcing transformation.

That’s when I discovered Self-Actualization (Maslow). The Gene Keys (Richard Rudd). Carl Jung’s work on Individuation.

Something in me clicked. I realized I had never actually been operating from my true self.
I didn’t yet know what that meant — but I knew this was part of my path.

Decoder Takeaway:
This lifetime taught me that seeking can become its own trap. You can collect tools, certifications, and wisdom — but if you’re still operating from the same survival patterns, nothing changes at the root. It’s why I don’t pile more “doing” on my clients — I take them straight to the interference and dissolve it.

❤️ The 7th Lifetime: The Spark❤️

The Collapse Into Truth

Despite everything I’d built, I collapsed again. Shame. Guilt. Confusion.

How could someone like me — with all this success, all this knowledge — still feel this way?

One by one, the things I’d manifested began to fall apart: The house. The relationship. The lifestyle. It all crumbled.

And I was surrounded by what I now call 4D ignorance — people parroting lines like, “Your results tell you who you are.” The same toxic, hierarchical mindset I’d grown up with — now dressed up in personal development language.

I realized the personal growth industry was, in many ways, running the same oppressive programming as the world it claimed to rise above. Pretending to be truth. Pretending to be God.

I remember screaming at God... to Life: “I want out! I have done everything ‘right’ — why does it still feel so wrong?” And then I looked in the mirror. Snot on my face. Skin and hair a mess. Eyes hollow.

But underneath… I saw something. A spark. Not a better version. Not a new identity. The real me. I wasn’t becoming — I was remembering.

And I heard it, clear as anything:
"You vowed to follow your light. You are following everyone else’s."

That was the moment everything began to change.

I saw it: We’re all being guided — not by achievement, not by hierarchy, but by the invisible Life Force that’s been here all along.

This remembering shifted me from chasing external results to living from internal alignment.
It wasn’t about adding more.
It was about letting go of what was never mine in the first place.

Decoder Takeaway:
This lifetime showed me that the deepest interference often comes disguised as “truth” or “success.” Now, when I work with clients, I can spot when their patterns are simply survival in a prettier outfit — and guide them back to the spark of their real self.

❤️ The 8th Lifetime: The Infinite Lifetime ❤️

The Lifetime After Remembering

There was no final transformation. No last trophy. No “ultimate version” of me.

Because once I remembered the truth — that I am the diamond underneath the crud — I stopped chasing. I stopped healing as if I was broken. I stopped seeking answers outside myself.

I started to simply… let go.

I could finally see it: Life had always been bumping up against what no longer belonged in me.
But I’d been too busy performing, striving, and looking for “the next breakthrough” to notice.

I’d been taught that life is hard. That it hadn’t chosen me. That only the strong, disciplined, and relentless win.

But that was never Life speaking.
That was the global system — the same one that teaches us to earn our worth, to fight for love, to grind for safety.

When I stopped performing to earn love, I started receiving it — because it had been in me all along.

And here’s the thing… Life still sends bumps. Challenges still arise. But now, I understand: they’re not punishments. They’re invitations. They’re showing me what to let go of next, so the diamond can shine brighter.

This is peaceful transformation. Natural success. Living with Life, not against it.

Decoder Takeaway:
This lifetime anchored what I now teach through Harmonize With Life™ — how to decode and dissolve the interferences that keep you looping, so you can flow with Life and create success that feels light, natural, and unshakable. No forcing. No fixing. Just unlocking what’s already yours.