❤️ First Lifetime: Survival As A First Language

I was born in Timmins, Ontario 

I was born into generations of inherited survival patterns... and a childhood of chaos, abuse and instability reinforced them. 

Very early, I learned to abandon my center and orient outside myself for the things every child needs — safety, love, connection, recognition, and having my needs met. 

Who do I need to be? What does everyone else need? What will keep me safe? Loved?

I didn’t know I was giving away my inner orientation and authority. I only knew to look outside myself for what I needed inside.

This is what we call living in survival. And most humans are oriented this way — without ever realizing they’ve left their own center.

❤️ The 2nd Lifetime: Performance As Identity. 

 If I can only be popular. 

By high school, I had figured out another way to get what I needed from the outside world:  Become.

Smart. Magnetic. High-achieving. Confident. Capable.

And it worked.

But I was still oriented outside myself — now looking for achievement, recognition and success to tell me who I was.

It looked like power. But it wasn’t my power.

I was still disconnected from my center and had no idea my Natural Authority even existed.

I had simply turned survival into success.

❤️ The 3rd Lifetime: Success As Armour ❤️

I Transformed Into A Corporate Warrior.  

I learned to turn achievement into safety. 

I climbed from customer service into leadership roles within Fortune 500 companies — successful and determined to look powerful on the outside.

But my self-abandonment was getting louder.

I chronically binge ate. I overworked. I was always searching for more.

I had built external power while completely disconnected from my own center and Natural Authority.

And here’s what I wouldn’t understand for years:

My childhood wasn’t what kept creating the symptoms in my money, love and health.

I was unconsciously continuing the pattern every day — abandoning myself, fragmenting my inner system, and then trying to heal the symptoms it produced.

I had no idea. 

❤️ The 4th Lifetime: The Body Breaks 

Eventually, the body finally said... No.   

Years of self-abandonment were showing up physically — chronic binge eating, weight fluctuations and health issues I couldn’t resolve. 

Then something changed. For a period of time, I came back to center.

My system stopped fighting itself. My energy, body and orientation came together — my authority returned... and within a year, I became a world-stage professional athlete. I was shocked. 

I had no idea what had actually happened. There was no fight or struggle. 

But then... when I began abandoning my center again, everything began to unravel.

Looking back, I can see it clearly:

When I was centered, my power was online. When I abandoned myself, my system fragmented and could no longer hold life the same way.

But I didn’t know the pattern yet. I only knew something profound had happened — and I needed to understand WHY.

That question changed the direction of my life.

❤️ The 5th Lifetime: The Collapse - To Mindset Teacher

Mindset Will Save Me! 

Then Bob Proctor entered my life, and I thought I’d found the answer.  I immersed myself in mindset, manifestation and identity work — and it worked.

I left my $200K corporate career.
I left my 20-year marriage.
I built the business, the dream relationship, the million-dollar home, the Range Rover.

I learned I could use my mind to create almost anything I wanted… but I was still oriented outside myself.

Now the outside world had a new scoreboard: Bigger goals. More money. Better results. More manifestation.

And without realizing it, my results had become evidence of who I was.

So I kept pushing to maintain them because somewhere inside was the question: “What kind of coach am I if my own life doesn’t prove this works?”

I had learned how to create more… but I still hadn’t learned how to stop abandoning my center.

❤️ The 6th Lifetime: The Healing - The Endless Seeking❤️

The Endless Seeking 

After creating my “dream life,” I thought I should finally feel free. 

I didn’t.

So I assumed there must be something else I needed to fix, heal or understand.

And I went ALL in.

Over $700K in healing, certifications and advanced study — energetics, ancient wisdom, Gene Keys, Human Design, psychology, nervous system work, and enough healing designations to wallpaper a bathroom. 😂

I became incredibly knowledgeable.

And incredibly good at seeking.

But I was still doing the exact same thing: Orienting outside myself for answers because I was disconnected from my own center and inner orientation.

Another teacher. Another map. Another modality. Another layer to heal.

I thought I was ascending, becoming soul-aligned and self-actualizing.

I had no idea the endless seeking itself was another way I was abandoning my center and Natural Authority.

❤️ The 7th Lifetime: Returning to my center❤️

The Collapse Into Truth

My life dismantled again — but this time, every area at once. Business. Relationship. Health. Home. Identity. Financial security.

Everything I had learned to orient toward outside myself was suddenly unavailable. And suddenly, there was almost nothing outside of me to orient toward.

Looking back, life has a sense of humor. 😂

It was like: “Well… now where are you going to look?” 

So for almost a year, I studied my own inner system. Some days I held my center and knew I could rebuild everything. Other days, I got kicked right back out and collapsed with whatever was happening around me.

Again and again, I practiced returning to center and holding it. 

And then I saw it: Every life bump was showing me exactly where I abandoned myself.

Life wasn’t working against me. It was continually showing me the way back to center.

That discovery became Return to Center™ and the foundation of Harmonize With Life™.

For the first time, I knew how to find my center — and how to hold it while life was life-ing. 

❤️ The 8th Lifetime: I stopped forcing transformation ❤️

My Natural Authority Returned

As I learned to hold center, something happened I never expected:  My Natural Authority returned.

Something ancient — an inner power and orientation I came to see women have been taught for generations to abandon.

Suddenly, I could see the pattern of my entire life: When I abandoned my center, I lost access to my power. When I returned, it returned naturally.

Self-trust. Confidence. Direction. Faith. Knowing. Unconditional love. Calmness. Stability. Creativity. Gifts. Movement. Consistency. 

I didn’t need to build them. I needed to stop abandoning myself and my life. 

The peace I felt internally... my system stopped fighting itself and began working as one. And for the first time, I wasn’t trying to master life.

I was participating as ONE with it.